"the last day I saw you, we laid on my bed, bare skin to skin, in silence. It was the first time you had ever been comfortable in still around me. You always tried to break it with words. But that day, we were silent for seconds, minutes, maybe hours, and something changed.
I loved you in a way I had never before and it breaks my heart because I’ll never get to experience that love with you again.
it’s been 81 days and I’m finally breaking down.”